Holy crap, I just looked over your blog a little bit and I have to say first and foremost I am SO sorry about what you’re going through. It sounds like you are at that point where one bad thing after another is happening and you feel beaten to a pulp. I sympathize with you and am also coming from a place of a recently shattered life. I will go ahead and do a reading for you and post it to my blog as anonymous. Positive vibes sent your way… off to do some tarot!